Wednesday, October 19, 2011

What do ya think??

I've updated my blog design!  Yikes, right??

I'm stressing over if you all will like it...  is the new tag a little to weird?? 

I started with an image of ...  yours truly... and added wings..  cause I have this sort-of love affair with wings right now..




It had silhouettes in the background flying kites...  but I showed it to my friend while it was a work in progress and she said...

"What's with the zombies??"



Oh.

Well that's not going to work..

I tried a couple with different back grounds...  But they were honestly a little too colorful for me..


Yeah I know... zombies are still there..



So what do you think?? 

As a reminder here's the old tag...  designed by the FABULOUS  Jeri Lynn of Jurra Does Announcements.   Love her.  xoxo


In nervous anticipation,

Cam
xoxo

Friday, October 14, 2011

What's this "Brave Girls Club" all about??

I've recieved the honor of guest blogging on the Brave Girls blog about my time and experience with Brave Girls Club and what it has meant to me. 

Check it out here: http://bravegirlsclub.com/archives/6564/comment-page-1#comment-48223

xoxo

Love you all. 

Cam

Ps. Go forth and conquer.

Sunday, September 25, 2011

Birthdays Suck.


I hate my birthday.  Hate it.  Dread it.  Cry through it. Want to run away. Pretend like it's not happening.  Find the time/space continuum so I can skip it..  HATE IT.

I mean...  woohoo!  Way for me for being born. I didn't actually do anything to accomplish this momentous occasion... except grow, but I want you to honor me and celebrate me every year for it none the less.  What in the heck??  Birthdays are kind of retarded. 

The attention makes me uncomfortable... really uncomfortable. It's awkward. My birthdays should no longer be acknowledged after the age of 21.  All of the important things have happened... after 21 I should be mature enough that I don't need to expect my friends to run around chanting my name with "hip-hip-hoorays" once a year.



I thought I was alone with this, but I googled it.  :)

http://isitnormal.com/story/i-hate-my-birthday-25343/
http://www.experienceproject.com/groups/Hate-My-Birthday/4964
http://www.facebook.com/pages/I-hate-my-birthday/258807264386
http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20110614052826AAjipqF
http://jannatwrites.wordpress.com/2010/07/13/why-i-hate-my-birthday-its-not-skin-deep/
http://www.stevepavlina.com/forums/emotional-mastery/16204-i-hate-my-birthday.html
http://www.socialanxietysupport.com/forum/f35/i-hate-my-birthday-52338/
and so on... and so forth...

94% of the populations of people (who are obsessed with their normalcy) are on my side!  I didn't write the posts, but I SO totally could have. 

On my birthday, I hate when people turn all this special attention on me...  it's so unbelievably uncomfortable... but at the same time, when people know it's my birthday and don't say anything then I'll just thinking to myself, "WTH!!"  It's a catch 22.  I just want to run away somewhere I can't be reached.  Because then... no one is saying Happy Birthday and making a big deal... and I'm not feeling discarded because someone forgot.  I feel stupid and selfish for caring if people forget when I don't want them to do anything either.

The weeks leading up to my birthday I just get more and more anxious until bammm... the big day hits.  I usually start "celebrating" a day or two before by feeling super depressed, randomly crying, and desperately looking for an escape... some way to avoid the day. I seriously consider shutting down my facebook account to avoid all the birthday comments, BUT I also know, come the "big" day, I'm selfishly going to need those comments or I'll feel super depressed.  It just gets worse and more intense the closer it gets.  And I always ride out the depression for a week or two post birthday. 

My birthday occurred recently and I had to wait an adequate amount of time before I was even capable of blogging about it.

What is wrong with me?  I really don't understand why I can't just let it go, and blow it off... but every year it gets to me.  I'm pretty emotionally shut off, and I can generally control my emotions in just about ANY situation...  but I can't freaking get a handle on it when it comes to my birthday.  Believe me I try..  I try so hard...

I don't know why I can't be one of those people who thinks their birthday should be a national holiday and should be celebrated for a month... and then that's exactly what they do.   It sure looks like they are having fun. 

My opinion?  I think society puts this image out there that birthdays are suppose to be this huge happy amazing day where we feel on top of the world, and so then if we don't... if we wake on our birthday and it feels (gulp) like a normal day...  then we feel like crap.  Maybe it's just me (and my 94%).

I should mention that I really want to celebrate my friends birthdays. :)  Love it.  Just please.. on mine...  say happy birthday so I know I'm not forgotten, but maybe don't make eye contact. 


Am I alone here?

xoxo Cam

Saturday, September 3, 2011

The Last Lecture by Randy Pausch

When I read a really good book, I take notes and then tack them up where I will see them often.  I couple years ago I read The Last Lecture, by Randy Pausch. 

These are some of my notes, and my Cam-isms.
Criticism:

When you're screwing up and nobody says anything to you anymore, that means they're giving up on you.  When you see yourself doing something badly and nobodies bothering to tell you anymore, that's a bad place to be.

Cam-ism: Not all negative feedback is productive or accurate.  But, when it comes from a place of love and respect listen with an open mind, and your defenses down.  I hope that my friends will always tell me...   I might not always agree, but I would rather know.

Determination:

The brick walls are there for a reason.  They're not there to keep us out.  The brick walls are there to give us a chance to show how badly we want something.  Never give up, and accept a boost when offered.  And once you get over [the walls] it can be helpful to others to tell them how you did it.

Cam-ism: On one side of the brick wall are those with determination.  On the other side are those without.  Oh, and the grass really IS greener over here...


Time Management:

Time must be explicitly managed, like money.  Don't invest it on the irrelevant details: It doesn't matter how well you polish the underside of the banister.

You can always change your plan, but only if you have one.

Cam-ism:  "Free time" is wasted time.  I like to live my life with a long and never ending to-do list.  Here's why...  I learn so much when I challenge myself.  I love to look over a project and tell myself, "I can do that."  I didn't start out knowing how to do it, and no one taught me how to do it, I figured it out through determination and hard work...  Hard work and determination go hand in hand with time management. 

What Others Think:

If nobody ever worried about what was in other people's heads, we'd all be 33% more effective in our lives and on our jobs.

Cam-ism:  Yeah, I'm pretty sure the 33% is made up too.  And I'm pretty sure myself.. personally... I would be WAY more than 33% more productive if I wasn't constantly worried about what others think.  I'm getting better about it.  Way less concerned, and trying to make sure my actions reflect ME and what I want, rather than what I think other people want me to be, or do, or think.

Relationships:

When it comes to men who are romantically interested in you, it's really simple.  Just ignore everything they say, and only pay attention to what they do.

Cam-ism:  Word.

xoxo

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

UPDATE: My Politically Incorrect Rant About Feeling Fluffy

This summer I set a few goals...  See the original post here.

1. 50 "mens" push-ups in a single set.
2. Ten Chin-ups
3. get back to running 5k a day.

And do it all before the end of the summer.  Summer official ends on September 23rd at 5:04am...  That means I'm running out of time. 

This is all about accountability:

1. I can currently do 25 mens push-ups...  With 30 days to go I'm pushing my luck at only 50%
2. SEVEN!!  Woohoo!  70% to goal 
3.  Um...  I have no idea becuase I haven't been out running even once since my original post.  I had better get it in gear.  I'm running the Women's Fitness Celebration..

Anyone want to run it with me?

Wish me luck... Pretty sure I'll need it.

xoxo
Cam

Thursday, August 18, 2011

August: Downtown: in the 208

Earlier this week my very good friend and co-worker: Shawna: and I had a meeting downtown.  After our meeting.. and after hour hour appitizers...  we were really determined to get some professional pictures for our company website.  (Does anyone see a problem with this rationale?)

A-hem...

{These are the nonprofessional ones.}

Oh... there are so many, many things I could say about this one. 
The irony... 
Where is the question mark... 
Is her hair red, or on fire?
Are you asking or telling?

(seriously-- love me some Shawna.) 



And um... don't ask.  All I could thing was how much I wanted a little disproportionate Native American in a Native American Village wearing a dress shirt and tie...  who has no feet.  Is it me, or is this picture a bit confusing? 

Persistence...
Are we saying white man's persistence has finally paid off in eliminating the culture and heritage of the ___________ (insert your own offensive slang term here).


Pencil. 

Somebody was getting creative.

And Shawna is a hottie.


Shawna isn't really a little chinese red headed girl, She's just trying to smile REAL BIG for the camera.  I asked her to simmer down...


And this is my beautiful city: 
Les Bois!  Les Bois!
Boise!  Boise! 

Okay, I just gave myself a bit of a history lesson, Wiki style.


In 4th grade Idaho History I was taught Boise got it's name from a French guide on the Oregon Train, who when coming upon the Boise Valley, out of rather dry desert conditions, called out, "Les bois, les bois! "  Meaning "The trees, the trees!"

BUT in reality les bois does not translate into "the trees".. it actually translates into "The woods."

Further adding to the confusion is that Boise is called "The City of Trees"  when apparently it should be "The City of Woods."

To anyone who has visited Boise, neither really makes a lot of sense, as Boise doesn't have an excessive amount of trees... or woods... but if you think like a settler and consider walking to Boise... well...it might make a little more sense.

Oh and please.... It's pronounced Boy-cee, NOT BoyZee.


Yours Truely.


I liked this suit till I saw it in pictures...  the color doesn't really do much for me.


And with that I leave you with Jimmy Hendricks.  Made out of hundreds of broken shards of glass.  Apparently, he use to live in a room full of mirrors...  I'm glad he got out...

...and found his way to Boise.




xoxo
Cam

Sunday, August 14, 2011

Transformation to a Cam Chair

Several months ago I came across this old desk chair in a second hand store.  One of the casters was missing, and the faux leather was ripped.

...and it was very dirty, and ugly
...but had great structure, and bones.

So I went to work.. I'll walk you through the steps.  Refinishing and upholstery work really isn't difficult, it just requires a lot of time and patience.


To start, remove all the "jewelry."  Castor feet, hardware, upholstery tacks etc.

Then strip the old upholstery fabric and foam or batting.  If your project is full upholster, and no wood refinishing, there isn't always a need to remove all the foam, unless it needs to be replaced.


Next, because my chair had such a dark finish, and I was moving to a white painted finish, I started with about 6 coats of spray paint as a base.  After the base had dried completely overnight, apply 4-5 additional coats of paint by brush, working in VERY thin layers, and sanding between coats as necessary.


I wanted a worn look so I used a power finishing sander to remove layers of paint down to the wood.  I then applied a gel stain to the exposed wood only, wiping clean immediately after application.  Finish by lightly sanding with 300-600 grit sandpaper.  Wipe clean and apply a coat of finishing wax to seal.

Next I attached the caster feet. Normally I would wait until the project is complete before applying hardware, but having the caster feet attached made the chair easier to work with in this case.


Next...  Upholstery.


This chair is unique in that it has no structured back, but relies on the tension of the fabric to support the back.  It's important to note that you will be working from the back of the chair towards the front, with quite a few layers of fabric.  Start by stretching tight and stapling in place the backing.  The right side of the fabric should be facing outward so the right side is visible when looking at the back of the chair.


Staples should be less placed about 1/2 - 3/4 inch apart or less.


Because I was using lightweight fabric, and I was concerned about it ripping out, I added a layer of heavy canvas after the back layer.  Staple in place exactly as the bottom layer.

Trim excess fabric from the edges after each layer.


After the canvas is a layer of felt material.


Again, for the best finish, the staples must be close together.  Hammer down any staples that don't go all the way in. 


Next the foam cushion is glued in place to the felt material, a layer of quilt batting is placed over the foam, and the top layer of fabric is stapled in place.



Trim the edge of the fabric.


Piping.

 I prefer to make my own, which allows me absolute freedom when it comes to fabrics.  Because I was working with a rather thin channel I opted to trim the unfinished edge of the chair back with piping and apply in place with hot glue. 
That was a first for me... using hot glue when finishing upholstery... 


This chair originally had upholstery tacks all around the edges on the backing and seat cushion.  Since this chair is for my art studio, I opted from something a little more CAM chic...  Vintage buttons.... hot glued in place.



When I bought these buttons a lot of them had been cut right off of clothing, so they still had the thread attached.


Vintage button rivets. 
I love you.


On the back of the chair back I glued more piping in place.  trimming the unfinished edge of the piping very short, and gluing the unfinished piping edge into the inside corner.


  To finish the armrests, start by gluing or stapling piping around the edge, then glue or staple batting  in place as shown.


Apply the top layer of fabric by carefully applying hot glue to the inside edge of the piping and then stretching the fabric; folding the unfinished edge under and applying to the glue.



To finish the seat, use a seam ripper to take the old seat cover apart.  Use each piece of the older cover as a pattern to cut the new cover.  Sew the new cover together.

And seriously.. could this even be considered a Cam chair if there was no turquoise? 


Apply a layer of batting to the foam seat base, and then fit the fabric, stretching and stapling in place. 

Work from opposite sides.... in other words: pull the fabric tight in the front, and apply one or two staples.  Then pull the fabric tight in the back and apply one to two staples... and so on.


For the best finish, the more staples the better.


Trim excess fabric and batting.

Because my chair seat sits directly on the finished wood seat, I hot glued a layer of flannel over the bottom of the seat cushion to cover the wood and staples. 


Fit the seat cushion in place and... finished!


Lube the bearings and wheels if necessary.

::I love you chair::



Beautiful Cam Chair.


The Cam Chair.
It's not for sale... and if you steal it I will hunt you down.
xoxo Cam