Tuesday, March 17, 2009

@!%$$* Anxiety!

My name is Camille.
And I have anxiety problems.

I try not to complain about it to much because I know so many people who have it so much worse than I do. At this point I don't need to be medicated, well most of the time, I don't need to be medicated. Most of the time I can handle life without any problem.

But every once in a while something will happen that triggers an "anxiety control meltdown" and I pretty much lose it. I can't handle anything, and I feel my anxiety completely take over every aspect of my life. It's like that feeling you have right after someone has jumped out and scared you, where you know you're okay, but your heart is still racing and you feel really jumpy and skiddish, and you can't really function because you thoughts keep returning to the memory of when you were first scared. It's like that... only it lasts for weeks sometimes. I have a hard time falling asleep, I wake up during the night, I wake up feeling that way in the morning.

Right now I am waiting on resolution to a particularly troublesome and anxiety inducing problem. I am hoping and praying the result will be favorable, and that it might be an end to the anxiety. I should have an answer in one week. Then, hopefully, I will be in control again. I don't even want to consider the answer not being favorable... I can't handle thinking about that.

So that's why I haven't been updating.

So I'm trying to catch up a bit today.

A cople week ends ago I was at Home Depot and I picked up the "do it yourself" kits for the kids.

Seriously, despite the overwhelming enthusiasm they have on their faces, they really did have a great time putting them together.

Noah made a football goal post, Jennica- a leaf press, and Aaron made an easel.

Thanks to one of my favorite new blogs I have started to try couponing. Couponing is the art of combining manufacturer coupons, with in store coupons, with sale prices, to get products for next to nothing or free. This was my first attempt. I can't remember the exact retail price of all of these items... it was around $75.00

I paid $23.00, and I got back $3.00 in instant "save on your next visit" store credits and a mail in rebate for $5.00... So in reality I spent $15.00. Not bad for my first try.

My second try didn't go quite as well. It was at Albertsons.. I was suppose to get a $10.00 instant discount for buying $25 in Nabisco/Kraft products, but I didn't get the rebate, even thought I spent over $30 in those products, and then I was suppose to get some register coupons for future discounts and I didn't get those. My kids were getting out of school and I was totally rushed so I didn't have time to get it figured out. Total bummer.

On Friday, I had a surprise slumber party for my niece and a couple of her best friends. She had no idea. It turned out great, and I enjoyed getting to know my niece's friends a bit. They are such lovely young women.

Anyway. That's all for now.


AMY said...

hey Camille,
So sorry to hear about your anxiety. I so understand everything you are saying. I struggled with anxiety issues for many years and still run into very limited situations that stimulate that response. I have found that all that worked for me was knowing I could never be "in control" and that there is a higher power over my life.

He has it all under control. I will pray for you! I know this will all go away in time. Best wishes!

Oh and couponing looks like something I could get anxious about:)

Kristi M. said...

Couponing is such an art. It takes practice and after a while it gets pretty easy. Great first try!

Mr. Metallic Vinca said...


Wow. Apparently, there's a lot of that anxiety stuff going around. Thanks for sharing. Hope all goes swell with the answer you receive.


Ali said...

Hey Sweetie,
I'm praying for you. You need to put this all in God's hands. Everything will work out the way it is supposed to. You are an incredibly strong and tallented women, my life wouldn't be the same without you.

Love you so much, hope you find peace tonight while you sleep

Damaris said...

Hi there sweetie:
I am so sorry you are going through this rough patch. I can only tell you that I will help you pray for a favorable answer to your prayers. Know that another pair of knees are kneeling taking your request to the Father's throne.

hayngrl101 said...

Hi Camille,

I have been lurking on your blog for a while... but now here I am! I'm sorry about the anxiety. I feel your pain. I will pray for relief for you.

A word about couponing. Love it. We should maybe network... A gal contacted me and is forming a group. Are you interested?


Camille said...

Sure Kamaile. Tell me more. Camillemcc@gmail.com

Craig and Stacy said...

They make medicine for that?? J/K
I know I have been the one who has been needy latley, It's not a place in life that I like to be ...It's uncomfortable and I am much better at being the person to be leaned on, the person who is needed for comfort, please let me be that for you! I know that it has been along time, and people change, but I have always loved you for loving me when I needed somone :) NO matter how long ago it was I will never forget how much you meant to me and would like to return the favor :) Stacy

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tiger said...

I love it! Very creative!That's actually really cool.