Wednesday, July 16, 2008

Boulder Lake

Vincent's due date is right around the corner. About 2 1/2 weeks away.

I am completely dreading it.

I'm getting a bit more emotional every day. I just absolutely do not want to be sitting at home thinking about how I should be going in to the hospital to have my baby. I don't want to be reminded that my baby was stillborn, while everyone else is having their beautiful healthy babies.

My official due date was August 15th. In my past two pregnancies I have gone into labor at least 1 1/2 weeks before my due date... Since I have scheduled c-sections, I'm not suppose to go into labor at all, but never fail, I always end up having an emergency c-section 1-3 days before my scheduled c-section. So this time I was going to push to have my scheduled c-section a full two weeks early. I wanted an August 1st or 2nd delivery date.

So now, to keep us distracted, Andy and I are going to go away for a few days. Gas is so expensive we didn't want to go far, but I really wanted to be able to be distracted, so I suggested backpack camping..

Andy is not an avid camper, although he did do all the boy scout camping trips. I have only been backpack camping once, when I was about 17 years old. Here we are 14 years later... We're going to Boulder Lake near McCall, Idaho, which is actually the one place I've been backpacking before.
I found this picture here. The picture was taken at the summit. I'm not sure we will hike that high, but it is absolutely beautiful. The picture was also take in June... There shouldn't be any snow in early August.

I'm a little nervous about the trip, although if we do forget anything it won't be THAT big a deal. We aren't that far from civilization. The hike to the lake isn't a bad one. From what I remember it was about 45 minutes... Maybe it was 45 minutes down?? Regardless, I know we can handle the hike. There is a nice lake there with decent fishing.

Does anyone know of any good meals I can plan for backpacking, or tips that make it easy... I really don't want to be stuck with MRI's...

I'm looking forward to the trip, and I suppose, the more things that don't go as planned, the more distracting the trip will be.

No, We're not taking the kids. They're going to have Grandma and Grandpa time.


ahalversen (DBA) said...

My heart goes out to you Cam. I know it will be a very difficult time. I think getting away is a great idea though! I hope you guys have a wonderful time! I wish I could help you out with the whole food thing, but I'm not a big camper. It looks beautiful up there though! I can't wait to hear how your trip goes :o)

Craig and Stacy said...

I am SO jelouse!!!! I remember that hiking trip.. it was so fun and beautiful. I have a few camping meals, it is mostley about preparation, if you wnat I will e mail you some of my "recipes" and I use that term loosley. I hope and pray that you will find the peace you are looking for ,and know that I am always here, as a distraction to help just let loose and be goofy or as a friend to talk to if you need to.

Kristi said...

It will be here before you know it and I will definately be thinking of you! The last time that Jeff went backpacking with friends he discovered the camping type meals and Winco and Walmart and actually really liked them. You just add water and they had everything from main courses to dessert. It helps in packing light.

Amy said...

You will get through, no it won't be easy but at least it sounds like you are coming up with fun distractions to show you what you do have in your life to be thankful for. Hugs to you!

Dustin & Jenn Hamann said...

I am jealous of your trip. That sounds so fun, we have talked about doing something like that or longer since before we were married. Of course, I am sorry for the reason of the trip. Mourning a child I would think would be one of the most painful experiences. We will be thinking of you. Love you, Jenn!

Scrapmymemories said...

Cam I cannot offer any advice on camping foods, I have NEVER been camping! Terrible I know!
I just wanted to say I will be thinking of you, the 2nd is actually Yasmin's birthday it brought a tear to my eye!


Anonymous said...

Husband here:
I have more experience than it sounds in this. I did a week long hiking trip in Northern New Mexico. I know what to expect on a trip like this and would even be ok with MRIs the whole time we are camping.
Anyway, I am looking forward to playing cards and fishing with this wonderful woman. The time together will be great

mom Tolmanb said...

I have never commented on your blog before Camille, but I found it so I thought I would hoping you wouldn't mind.I found it on my daughter's blog (Mistie). I know there's some connection there so you would know who i am. I just want to say I feel your hurt. I had a similar experience. If you ever want to call me to get the load off your shoulders I'd be happy to listen. Sometimes just verbalizing it helps. Know we care.