Not to be confused with a warrior. Being a warrior would be awesome! A warrior would always know what to do and and wouldn't fret over if any one's feelings got hurt in the decision making process because they would know they made the right choice. A warrior is always needed and makes those around them feel secure and safe. I would love to think people are all scared and don't know what to do and then I show up.
And everyone is so happy and feels so at easy. Like, NOW everything will be A-Okay.
But alas, I am a HUMONGOUS worrier. Here are some of the things I worry about. Some are rational, and some are really not.... but that won't stop me because I am a Super Worrier.
And by the way, a super worrier does not wear a cape, and never has pictures of them taken at an upwards angle so they look larger than life, with wind blowing threw their hair and the sun at their back.
...the first freeze of winter has killed my sad little garden and I did not get enough produce to put up for the winter.
...something bad will happen this winter and since I didn't get food put up we will all starve to death.
...something bad will happen and we won't be able to get any energy and we will all freeze to death this winter.
...my BFF is really sick and maybe she won't get better.
...there are so many horrific things happening with my siblings right now that make so sad and stressed for them.
...the letter I wrote to my dear friend to try and express my love, and be helpful came out all wrong and just made her feel worse and..
...I should email her or call her and apologize but then if I didn't make her feel worse I look like an insecure idiot and...
...she will think, "Oh no, not her again!" when I come around.
...everyone thinks, "oh no, not her again!" when I come around.
...there are people I should forgive and need to forgive that I am hanging onto anger towards.
...about my friend who just found out her husband is being laid off.
...about my husbands job when so many people seem to be out of work, or getting laid off.
...about my in laws in Russia with the Georgia conflict.
...my car might break down
...fiances are too tight.
...about the economy.
...the elections. Neither candidate seems to like a really great choice to me.
...am I teaching my children what they need to KNOW to survive when they leave the house... every time they leave the house
...I'm bitter when I see pregnant women and newborn babies.
...about being used.
...people don't really like my work, but just tell me they do to placate me.
...my kids teachers might not like my kids.
...you all might realize I am a loser and move on.
...you all now know how insecure I am and will think I'm a freak. A freak who needs help, and you will move on.
...I keep letting people down.
...people think I am a bad mom because my kids are not in the top of their class.
...my kits for the November Crop I would like to participate in will not sell.
...that I worry too much.
Okay, I think I'm done for now. Not that this is all I am worried about, It's just the parts I feel comfortable sharing. There is so much more!
Wouldn't you like to know... Probably not. Wait, don't go....