Tuesday, October 7, 2008

Wings Take Me Home

I've been wanting to to something for my little Vincent, but I just couldn't seem to come up with anything that really felt right.

I wanted something that I could keep with me.

And that I could use as an instrument to make it easier for other people to ask about my little boy.

And to make it clear that even though I am okay, I still think about him every hour of every day.

I finally got the design right to meet my needs.

I don't believe that my baby has wings. I don't believe that angels have wings at all. But I love the symbolism of the wing. To me, it symbolizes the ability to ascend unassisted.

When my baby was born, he had been gone for a couple weeks. I do have pictures of him, but the pictures are hard to look at, and I can't bare the idea of sharing the pictures with anyone who might not quite get how precious they are to me. Even if his little body wasn't...

just wasn't.

So I have his ultra sound pictures. The last set of ultra sound pictures I have are from my last doctors appointment. I'm lucky to have them. He had already had his ultra sound several weeks before this, but the doctors baby heart monitor was not working so she used the ultra sound to check his heart beat, and printed some pictures for me while she was at it. He passed away approximately two weeks after this ultra sound.

I printed the picture on vellum paper so when you hold it up to the light you can see through the page.
On the reverse side is one of my favorite quotes, with a little extra I added. It says:

Having a baby is to forever have your heart go walking around outside of your body. Stillbirth changes nothing."


I have decided to sell the acrylic mini album. There are so many people I can think of in my own personal life who have lost a loved one to miscarriage, stillbirth, SIDS, illness, cancer, accidents... It breaks my heart and it's so impossible for me to fathom how anyone can survive multiple losses. The pain would be unbearable.


Right now, the album is priced a little high because it's so difficult to cut. I am working on trying to have the album manufactured so I don't have to hand cut each one. If I can I will adjust the price, but it could be a while before I get there. If you need one now...







11 comments:

elina said...

Hi Camille!! I am from Greece, Europe and I am really impressed by your house designs especially the Christmas ones!! do you deliver in my country?? Thank you
Elina

Shawna said...

Wow. I am speechless. Instead of reading my mind, you read my heart. I love it.

Camille said...

Yes Elina, I deliver worldwide.

Please email me at camillemcc@gmail.com for a shipping quote.

The6ofusinca said...

Wow!!!! My thoughts and prayers are with you. Your work is amazing and I pray that you will find a company to manufactor your templates for your books!

jillybean said...

Beautiful! I am so happy you have done this! What a beautiful reminder! I love it!

carole said...

You are full of wonderful ideas and this one will definitely bless many lives and fill some of the void they feel. I know many friends who would love to have this. Can we say great Christmas gift idea?!

Kindall Klan said...

I love it cami-- so touching!

Jesse Edwards said...

that is beautiful. it's very touching.

Alison said...

Your strength never ceases to amaze me, I love you my bff xox

Krista Hanna said...

This album is a beautiful way to remember your baby boy, and reading your words about it really brings tears to my eyes. I know how close we came to losing Lucas when he was a baby and I have only felt a fraction of what you have. I hope that your album idea will help other moms who have lost a child.

Amanda said...

What a wonderful tribute to Vincent. Ever since you told me about your situation I have been so sad for you. I can't even imagine the pain that you carry. Kudos for you for making this precious keepsake that will also bless the lives of other who are also dealing with loss. I should get one for my sister.